Holiday Bessings

I have been doing as many wonderful Christmassy things as I can. I love the joy Christmas brings to people. I have lights in my dorm (thanks, Dad), a pink tree (thanks, Mom) and a bunch of gifts for my friends and family. My Christmas season started off in our Chapel.

I read a passage from the Bible in the annual Christmas service the College puts on. That was so much fun. I had the choir behind me and had the privilege of experiencing the power of live singing. I want to thank the College for letting me be a part of that magical night. And I am thankful that the lift worked and that nothing went wrong with my DynaVox. I got to teach about 100 people that night that communication can come in many different forms which was a gift in itself. Along with being grateful for a multitude of blessings throughout the year, I am always reminded that it is a gift that I have this fabulous power to teach people.

The weekend after that, my dorm became Santa's workshop. Kids, it is of course a metaphor, of course Santa's workshop is in the North Pole! I sent out twenty five packages to my friends in Minnesota. It was absolute craziness! I did not have a bed; it was covered in wrapping paper and gifts. I know that the majority of you up in Minnesota have not gotten these packages so don't count on this post to give away anything!

That is about all I have done so far. I have been extremely stressed with finals. I had two twenty five minute group presentations, a seven page paper, an essay test and a skit to perform. Yeah, I've been busy. I have to mention that right before one of my presentations, I'm standing in the coffee line and the back of my chair breaks. I am in the reclining position when I want to be sitting up ready for the presentation. I did have a bit of a meltdown because I am thinking, how the heck am I going to type my paper that is due in two days and my group presentation is in a hour. However, after a few encouraging words from my assistant, Kim I got myself together. I have to give kudos to my dad for driving out the next night to fix my wheelchair.

As for today, in a few hours Dad will once again drive out to Elmhurst and pick me up to go home for two weeks! I am so excited! I get to see all the neighborhood kids ice skate in our backyard. Yes, our back yard becomes a skating rink due to the efforts of several neighborhood dads. They get obsessed but it's actually really nice of them. Also, the Thompson family is hosting their annual Christmas party!

I absolutely, positively love this party! Everyone who makes our life good and meaningful is there and they all make a point of talking to me which is the greatest feeling in the world! In addition to this joy, I am also reminded of how far I have come. Some of our guests held me when I was hours old and now when they embrace me; I am this tall, intelligent young woman who leads a wonderful life. So to see people who held me at birth, then seeing me slung over my father's shoulder getting carried to bed to the present which is talking to me about college and my aspirations. It's pretty meaningful. I consider this party a reminder from God that I am doing well and that my life is filled with love.

I hope you have a wonderful holiday season. You are all in my hearts year round but this time of year, you are being thought of even more than usual. Thank you for continuously lighting up my life.

May you be blessed this season and have a wonderful New Year!

Can't Wait to go Home,

Hannah!

The Joys of Everyday Life

Recently, I got asked to do a presentation about my disability and how I live my life. It was for a class that Dr. Fiene who I mentioned earlier in my posts asked me to do. This presentation was really enjoyable. I have decided to put the speech and questions that were asked in this post:

My alarm clock is a garage door opener. With the push of a button, my assistant walks in and my day begins. My assistant turns on my DynaVox, which is my voice and then my computer which I rely on for countless tasks. Then, she starts getting me dressed because I am unable to get dressed and undressed independently. She puts me in my wheelchair, combs my hair and takes me to the washroom. This is all while I am thinking about my day, appointment at 3:00, that assignment for class is due on the 20th and so on. I check my e-mails while I eat breakfast, maybe some assignments from professors, Facebook messages, and of course and usually an e-mail from my mom about something or another. I take a shower with complete help from my assistant. Yes, I threw modesty out the window a long time ago! After my shower, I have a two minute makeup routine and I am out the door. My assistant stays in my dorm and does tasks such as, laundry, running to Walgreens, and scanning my books and worksheets into my computer.

I come back from class. It’s one of the best parts of the day! I get my coffee! An iced white chocolate usually is what I get and the coffee people can guess what I want most days. Now, it’s down to the cafeteria for lunch. My assistant feeds me and it feels extremely normal for that is all I know. I don’t know anything different, to me, it’s an everyday occurrence. Usually, I check my mail after lunch. When we get back, I do my exercises. My assistant leaves for the day. I am independent for the next two to five hours. During this time, I usually, check my e-mail again, do homework, go to the writing tutor, and basically do stuff that I can do without a personal assistant. This is a nice time for me because I get privacy and get the privilege of independence. I go to another class at 4, and that ends at 5:30. A different assistant meets me at my dorm, she takes me to the bathroom and we head to the cafeteria for dinner. I usually order from the pasta bar and yet again, the staff can predict my order. I love how they know me. After dinner, my assistant leaves me. This is usually when I do the bulk of my homework and Skype with my friends from Minnesota. After this period of time, my assistant will come and put me to bed which involves, brushing my teeth, face wash, make up remover and taking me to the bathroom. Then, I walk to my bed and go to sleep just to push the garage opener the following morning.

Before I open this up for discussion, I would like to mention a few things. On Monday and Fridays, I have physical therapy in the afternoon. On Monday, the therapist comes to me and we work in the gym. I do the treadmill and stretch. On Friday, I have to take the Pace bus to a therapy clinic and it’s frustrating because they are always late. This is incredibly annoying! You should know that my day is full of hellos from sorority sisters and good friends on campus which make my day. I have SGA on Thursdays. I don’t really think about the disability that much because I live as normal as I can. You guys had questions and I tried to answer them while describing my day but some questions I could not incorporate into this part of the lecture presentation.
First question: Have you ever felt that your disability has restricted you, or do you not see your situation as a disability?
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Of course a physical disability or any disability restricts you. I can’t drive a car, grab a drink if I’m thirsty and so on but I don’t let it restrict me from things such as joining a sorority. So, it’s really how you choose to see it. If you say to yourself, I can’t even give myself a drink, then your life is going to suck but if you focus on the things you can do, your life will be better.

2nd question: What are some obstacles that you have had to overcome because of your physical disability?

Going to school, personal care, I face obstacles on a daily basis. Just getting to know somebody can be difficult because they don’t understand how I work but it’s amazing because I see myself grow and I have the privilege of watching people grow, it’s pretty cool and it outweighs the frustration completely.

3rd question: Were you always able to talk through your computer? If not how has it changed/helped you?

I got the DynaVox in elementary school and I hated it because I didn’t think it was my voice. I used an ABC board because I had simple thoughts and my mom and dad could understand me. Not until I wanted to flirt with Joey on the bus then I realized the power it gave me. Oh, the power of hormones!

4th question: What kind of opportunities has Elmhurst College given you?

The first thing that comes to mind is a social life! In high school, I didn’t have friends because nobody wanted to take the time to get to know me. Everyone ignored me and now, my peers help me daily and I feel like I can be a valuable friend and vice versa. So, it has been a 360 from my life in high school. It’s shocking how my expectations have changed of my peers. It used to be, please help me, now, the help is so automatic. It’s been absolutely incredible.

5th question and this one was my favorite: Is there anyone who has inspired you or helped you become the person you are?
Oh my God. So many people have helped shaped who I am. A lot of high school teachers, a lot of amazing assistants but I have to say my parents. They always made sure I was happy and that I had every opportunity I could and with that belief, other people came into my life and were able to say, yes you can. And I entrenched myself in those beliefs.

Final question: What is one thing you would like everyone to know about you?

I think it is that I know my purpose in life is to teach and inspire the world. Anything is possible and never say no.


The students were extremely receptive and I could tell I had made an impact which always feels good. These presentations never get old, I swear!

I have not been having the most glorious two weeks. Registering for classes was particularly stressful and my professor passed away.

You have to understand that usually I get early registration for classes. However, during the January term which is basically summer school in the dead of winter, juniors and seniors get priority. My first choice was a special class for communication majors and I really wanted it. There were 22 spots, throughout the week I watched it go down to 0. Shoot. I still have my general education literature requirement to fulfill. So my backup was Civil War literature. It would have been a bit dull for me though but I could have withstood the dullness. Guess what? Didn't get in. So, I look at the classes and all that is left is a class that I can't even understand the title to and the professor provided no description. I don't have any other options except to register blindly into this course. I tell the registration office to sign me up for the course. I go over to the registration office and the woman who helps me actually had the syllabus for me. I look through it and it's actually a virtual travel course in Germany. This class actually looks pretty cool. I will follow up on this in my January post. Although this ended well, it did put a huge amount of stress on me which was not good!

When I walked into acting class on the first day, I saw this young and spry woman full of pizzazz. It was clear that she fully understood me. I was grateful for this because I am not the typical Acting student. The weeks went by; we got a temporary sub due to her being sick. This just meant she just had to recover to me. I thought nothing of it. She would come back for a day or two during those two weeks and she had an oxygen tank with her. Still, I thought she would recover. Then, a week ago my permanent substitute professor had an announcement. Suddenly, I knew exactly what he was going to say. He went to his office and had an e-mail from Kristin Spangler's husband. She was on life support and her attorney was coming that day. I started crying and I was far from alone. The entire class was crying and if you weren't crying, you had this numb look about you. She passed away that day. It is a very sad time for my peers especially the theater majors. All I can say is and this is partially to my readers who are disabled: We lost a good one. And to my great peers of Elmhurst College: I love you and I am here for you!

Although I don't want to especially in the light of Professor Spangler's passing, I have been stressing a lot lately over the little stuff and I think it is human nature to do that because we want everything to go smoothly. I'm not going to say anything about destressing because I don't have that answer. However, try to concentrate on the big things like friendship. That reminds me, I did have a wonderful visitor earlier this month.

The visitor was Katherine from Camp Courage! Ah! We were so excited to see each other! I walk out of class and I see her running towards me. It was pure joy! She was going to be on campus for the day then we would go back to Glenview for shopping and manicures. We were the dynamic duo like always! I would like to point out that all the staff members made time to meet Katherine. Elmhurst College never ceases to impress me! It was a glorious time with a woman who I consider a sister. At one point in the weekend or maybe it was in December, I said, boy I would love to thank the person who assigned us as cabin mates because that person deserves to know about what we have and be thanked profusely! Speaking of thanking people profusely, I have to thank my mom for virtually giving up her weekend so Katherine and I could do everything we wanted to. Thank you, Mom!

Before I leave your inbox, one last story (I can't send a post without some humor):

I wake up at 7:45 and I am at the edge of my bed. This cannot be good. I am also at the bottom.
Hmmm......this isn't good. Now, I am thinking how am I going to push the garage door opener all the way at the top of the bed? If I roll over, I fall off the bed. But how the heck to let my assistant in? I really don't know. I figure when she knocks on the door, I will call for her as normally as I possibly can. My assistant knocks on the door. Normal voice. Normal voice. Normal voice, Hannah! If I didn't use my normal voice, my assistant would worry. I didn't want or need that. I call out in my normal voice. She knows something is up! She is smart enough to figure out that for some reason, I can't open the door. She calls Campus Security to open my door. I'm thinking PLEASE DON'T CALL 911, I don't need paramedics today. The security guard comes and unlocks my door and refuses to even look at me until my assistant said everything is going to be fine. You know...I have to say cute paramedics wouldn't have bothered me that morning!

I apologize that I couldn't write about a funny or sweet adventure. Really, I am! But, this is everyday life fortunately and unfortunately. I realized this month that everyday joys can be just as good. Everyday life is frustrating, monotonous and boring but it can be wonderful, happy and funny. So with that being said, I encourage you to see the joys of everyday life.

All My Love,
Hannah!

The People That Lift Me Up

It's 6:30, time for the dress rehearsal for the talent show. I get to the beautiful chapel, got my great outfit on, all ready. I saw the talent show last year and knew I had to be in it this year. I performed in Camp Courage Idol which was a talent show at Camp and I had won which solidified that I should do this. I am ready, I see that big, beautiful stage in the chapel! But, the stage is not ready for me...not one bit!

I get there and ask Jennifer, a homecoming chair if the lift is ready. No. It is not working. The lift to the stage that I have dreamed about performing on...yea...that lift is broken! Jennifer says that she has called maintenance. I'm thinking this should be a twenty minute quick fix. The maintenance man comes and he says, there is nothing we can do. What? So now I have about five students looking at this thing. They are all still trying to get it to work. Shortly after the maintenance guy leaves, Elizabeth who I have mentioned in the blog before and is one of the staff members in charge of this event comes. I start getting all teary eyed when she shows up. I didn't want my dream to be put on hold for another YEAR. Elizabeth says, I've made some calls to the head of Security and another maintenance guy is coming. Meanwhile, my sorority sister Brittany has not left my side. I am a wreck; in fact everyone was a wreck. The guys are still trying to work on the lift. At this point, you're probably thinking, why don't they just lift the chair? That is a big rule with my parents and I that NOBODY lifts the chair. Despite this concrete rule, Brittany and I call my mom and explain the situation. My mom of course says, no, it's way too dangerous. At this point, I am frustrated and sad.


The guys (my fellow students) are still working on the lift. They have been working on it for a good hour now, meaning I have been in emotional turmoil for a HOUR. I am just looking at Brittany like, is this really happening? She is trying to comfort me as well as fix the lift. On top of everything, the audience is starting to come. Great.

While the show begins and a lot of guys who are helping me actually have to do their jobs and host the show, the maintenance guy comes and unlike the other maintenance guy who just said call the manufacturer (OK, buddy like company hot lines are open at 8:00 at night), this guy was determined to fix this thing. Meanwhile, Ian who is another staff member sponsoring this event comes. Ian was also very determined to get me on stage. So, now Ian and the maintenance guy are trying to fix the lift to the stage of my current dreams. I take the liberty to call my mom again to ask if I can have the willing guys lift me on stage. She responds, you wouldn't be calling me if this was safe. Darnit, you're right, Mom! And yes, I did use a different word besides darn.

Going into our third hour of this mess, people are wondering if I should perform on the ground, they have moved my act to very thr last, I mean everything has been done in my favor which I was more than thankful for. I remember saying to Ian, at least I have great people around me and this will make a great blog. Remember, Brittany is still at my side. And I have to admit, I was looking up at that chapel ceiling periodically throughout the night going, God, are you serious? Another half hour of emotional turmoil passes and nothing.

It's the end of the show and things are looking real, real bleak. Until, the lift starts moving up and down. We're halfway there! Then, by some miracle and a lot of hard work the lift is able to unfold! It was a joyous moment for all! Brittany is crying for joy, I am overjoyed and hugging everyone in sight, Ian is just plain relieved, Elizabeth is smiling from ear to ear and everybody backstage is simply overjoyed including the maintenance man. I call my mom and say, it is quite the moment! Everyone was simply thrilled!

I roll on the lift, it does indeed take me up and I roll on stage. Brittany takes my DynaVox off and I start dancing with my heart and soul. I own that stage! It was an amazing feeling! The audience gave me a standing ovation which just was incredible and they didn't know that I had struggled to physically get on the stage. I had already won the talent show in my mind.

So, after my dance, I am thinking it does not matter if I win. I got to dance on that glorious stage and fulfill a dream. When we were all called back on stage to announce the winner, I thought, OK, it would be nice to win. When the envelope was passed to the host, HANNAH THOMPSON was announced. Oh my God! This was like a Disney movie! The other performers started to hug me and I felt like Miss America! My other sorority sister, Kim got runner up!

Needless to say, I am so incredibly grateful for ALL those people who worked on the lift! Students and faculty came together to fulfill a dream. All I can say is THANK YOU, especially to my Phi Mu sister, Brittany!

Since I have been in Phi Mu, I have had incredible things like this happen, maybe not on this large of a scale but still incredibly blog worthy!

In March, we had a retreat at a sister’s house. We had ordered a ramp and when I got there, it hadn't come. Two of the girls helped me sit in a normal chair and while my assistant was figuring out the ramp situation, the girls held me in the chair and fed me pizza. The sisters are willing to take that extra step and help me.

Over the summer, we had a recruitment workshop ALL DAY. Around the lunch hour, girls were getting food from Portillos. Two sisters gladly offered to go and get Portillos and bring it back. They fed me like it was second nature. While we were eating, the two sisters started to talk about how involved they would get this year. During their conversation, I commented, it’s really hard for me to get involved because of me having to manage my assistants. You have to understand that I can't be involved in everything since I essentially have a job managing my assistants so hearing these conversations is difficult. Instead of brushing the comment off, they expressed that they understood my responsibilities and watched me struggle with ongoing cancellations with my assistants. They really did get it.

At homecoming, all the Greek organizations tailgate. We're talking and having a great time and I start gagging. A couple of sisters take me back to my room and calm me down. We were talking in my room about how some people really don't get it. For example, they pointed out that people apologize when I hit them and instances such as those when people act like idiots. I'm sitting there thinking to myself, they really do all get it so much to the point where we can totally joke about it.

I joined a sorority because of the fundamentals. I would be a part of a group of women who shared the same beliefs as me and would eventually get to know me on the level I just explained. This is the feeling I have at Camp Courage. I wanted to find those fundamentals that Camp Courage had and be able to have that feeling at college. Those fundamentals would include: a structured schedule, planned activities, amazing people, and an immense feeling of acceptance. Phi Mu is able to give me all those things in a college setting. I am so grateful and blessed to have Phi Mu and Camp Courage in my life. Finally, a big thank you to my parents because I wouldn't of been able to go to Camp Courage without them driving me eight hours there and back every summer for four years and finding a place where I would be embraced for having a disability. And my parents are very supportive of me being in Phi Mu, they never say no unless it involves my safety. My parents, my sorority sisters, the people at Elmhurst College and my beloved Courage friends, you are the people that lift me up. I love you all so much!

Lots of Love,
Hannah!

I Guess a 6th Graders Dream Never Disappears

When I got home from hearing the results from the 6th grade election, I was crying. I remember my mother pulling up the driveway in the big white van and her getting out of the car and consoling me. Needless to say, I had lost the Hoffman elementary school student government election. From then on, I stayed away from any type of elections.

Fast forward to the first week of sophomore year of college. I was featured in a diversity exhibit in the student union. My picture was HUGE as you can see.

So, I'm at this exhibit with my parents and Genevieve, my sister. We're enjoying ourselves and talking to Eileen, the Dean of Students. My mom in her usual fashion is taking a bunch of pictures of the event. Dr. Ray, the esteemed president of the university who I talk to on a frequent basis comes over to talk to me. I ask how his three kids are doing and look at the little wallet size photos and commenting on how cute they are and exchanging pleasantries with one another. This continues until he brings up the student government. His "personal hope" for me is to be on the student government. I respond by saying that this was flattering. Dr. Ray responds by saying, he really wants me to do it. In addition to him, a handful of administrators asked me to be on student government association (SGA). So, not only do I have the administration saying I should do this; I now have my parents wanting me to do this. Oh, and I forgot, my very good friend and role model, Hannah is pushing me also. My parents and I went out to dinner after the exhibit and you bet we talked about SGA. I get home from dinner and I don't know what to do. I was hesitant for several reasons.




The first reason was that it was a time commitment. Did I have time and for that matter, energy to do this?





The second reason is a bit more complicated to explain. See, in the past my peers have ignored me and to be honest, I never really liked them. But these were the Elmhurst students. I had them on very high pedestals. I loved them. I wanted to keep them on pedestals. I knew that someday they would have to be tested. It was inevitable. This election would test if they thought I was good enough to lead them despite my physical condition. Good enough. Pretty scary words.





Those were the two major reasons that I just did not want to be on that ballot. So, it's two days until the election. I would have to get 50 signatures in twenty four hours and write a 75 word personal statement. I thought about it that night. As I was falling asleep, one of my last thoughts included the question, why would God put this many people in my life pushing me to do this? Especially a peer.





I woke up the following morning and the first thought that pops into my head is: I have to get those fifty signatures! I go get that application with fifty blank lines on it. I was going to get those signatures! First, I asked my literature class to sign by asking them before class began. They all signed the petition. It got me to thirty something signatures. Then I went to the Frick Center which is our student union. Not only did people sign the petition, they gave me genuine words of encouragement. I called my mom to tell her that I had gotten thirty something signatures. She was surprised that I had decided to do it and encouraged me. By 5:30, I had gotten 50 signatures. This was a big confidence booster. My next task was to write a personal statement. My personal statement was:


Acceptance and unity are the words that come to mind when I think of Elmhurst College. I think of acceptance because from when I arrived, I was accepted despite my appearance. When I serve on the Association, I want to give that feeling of acceptance back to students. Unity comes to mind because while we are diverse, we have goals that unite us. When I serve, I will enforce these two essential feelings on campus. Now, that's a personal statement!


I did get elected.


A few hours after I knew I got elected, I get a knock on the door and it is Jake, a Lamba Chi (a fraternity) and an icon on SGA. Thankfully, I was still dressed appropriately to see a guy. I let him in my room and I am thinking what? He starts telling me about the drama that SGA has had. To be truthful, I was hesitant even after I was elected. I am a girl who is all heart and don't want to be hurt by the game of politics. Trust me, it may only be college but you bet people play games and such. Jake stopping by didn't help this feeling of hesitancy. The last thing I need is more drama in my life but, I must say it's wonderful for blog purposes.

I ended up really enjoyed the first meeting. I felt quite empowered. This is the time where I have to confess something. I have always wanted to be on student government. Yea, I know. It isn't like me to wait for people to push me towards my dreams but I had the right people steering me in the right direction. So, I really wish I could hug that little 6th grader in that purple Gap sweatshirt and promise that everything was going to be all right because her dream never really disappeared.


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Stories That I Just Have to Tell:


We have a program for cognitively challenged young adults at Elmhurst. The student body gladly accepts these students. There is one student in particular that has a place in our hearts, his name is Andrew. He can sit at any table at lunch because everyone makes room for Andrew. All of us watch out for him since he's Andrew and loved by all. Well, Friday night Elmhurst's Union Board is hosting a comedian and I decide to go. I get there and park myself in a great spot, all ready to go, going to be a great show. I see Andrew there which is very common. I'm sitting a few rows behind Andrew. The comedian starts to do his thing. Andrew spontaneously decides to leave which is completely normal. We're used to this. The comedian starts making fun of Andrew for leaving the show so early not knowing about Andrew. We all start laughing because of the comedian's complete blindness to the situation. It was our way of saying, you idiot, he's our Andrew. Eventually, the Union Board president runs up there and explains Andrew's situation. I thought that this showed that the students knew the situation well enough to be able to laugh at a genuinely funny thing that has happened. I think it increased our acceptance of Andrew even more. I hope this short story is taken in the right manner, we were not laughing at Andrew in any way, we were laughing at the comedian's ignorance.





So, here's another elevator story. I stepped into the elevator that already had a passenger in it. The passenger was a woman-probably a professor. It is about 4:00. Here is our dialogue:





Passenger: Going to class?


Me: Yes.


Passenger: I'm done with my classes. You must have a late class.


Me: Yes. Passenger: I'm better off than you.


Me: Yes.


Passenger: Oh God, I didn't mean it that way (referring to my physical situation), sorry.


I'm thinking, really, it's OK to say that. I knew exactly what she was referring to. We are so politically correct in this nation. Now that I look back on it, it was really funny!





The beginning of the school year started off with a bang! This particular bang has made me love my friends and Elmhurst and in Minnesota even more. My friends in Minnesota were checking in on me during this process. My friends at Elmhurst do deserve a lot of recognition for seeing past everything and saying that not only do they love me, they want me to lead them as a representative in student government. This student body is truly amazing.





Your Student Government Representative,


Hannah!





P.S. Do you like the new layout and color scheme of my blog? I chose pink and white because those are the colors of Phi Mu and colors of success to me.





P.S.S. My mother and father put up with my indecisiveness constantly, I want to thank them for always being supportive no matter what.

Elmhurst...I'm Back!

So good to be back! AAAAAAAA!!!

It has been three hundred and sixty five days since I came up with this idea. So, it is a special day for me in a way. Like I have said in previous posts, I had no idea that this blog would be such a hit with you all. It's been such a pleasure writing for each and every one of you. Let's go back to June.

When I arrived back in Glenview, it wasn't a good feeling. I chose to do some self reflecting and ask myself why. I came up with what I was labeled in Glenview versus Elmhurst is radically different. I am labeled much more frequently with the word disabled in Glenview than at Elmhurst. At home, I constantly need someone's help which is mentally draining. I can't direct the way I am taken care of, I can't say I want to take a shower at this time of the day, I can't go out of the house and necessarily be safe. At Elmhurst, I can schedule when and how my personal care is performed and go anywhere on campus and be safe. When that is taken away from you, you're going to FEEL disabled. There is a difference between BEING disabled and FEELING disabled. I am disabled 24 hours 7 days a week 365 days out of the year which is fine with me, it's my life and as I have expressed before, I love my life! However, feeling disabled is an entirely different thing. It happens when Katherine calls me on Skype and I am in bed unable to answer her call, it happens when I need to get out of my chair and I can't be doing what I want on the computer and anytime I am put into a position where I can't move or be productive which is rare at school. Now, I do lay down at school-just on my own terms. I will choose to have a meal in bed which gets me out of the sitting position or watch The Bachelor laying down. It's when I have to lay down and have it interrupt my life that I don't like it. So, at home I feel disabled more than at Elmhurst because I have control my life. But, I am happy to say there is a place where I can go that I am not labeled by my disability at all. That is Camp Courage!

I saw Katherine and that was it. We were attached at the hip. The counselors caught on mighty quick that we were a pair. I was so happy to see my girl! It was really exciting then I met up with Keith! Oh! That was just spectacular to have Katherine and Keith with me!


The first counselor I met was Kate. She understood my situation and Katherine's situation which is rare that one person can understand both of us and how we function together. You have to understand, once the parents leave, it's all on the counselors to take care of us. So, whoever meshed with me-well, really Katherine and I stays with us. I liked Kate for Katherine and I and she seemed to like us. Katherine and I were nervous about the first meal because due to a new issue where she hears EVERYTHING 100 times louder than we do. This is obviously extremely stressful on Katherine. We both knew that there was a good chance she wouldn't be eating in the dining hall. The moment of truth arrives. It's dinnertime and I ask Katherine to try eating in the dining hall. She tries and everything is going well, were giving each other looks like this is going to work. It lIt worked until they used the microphone. Kate, Katherine and I both know it is not going to happen-whatsoever. Now, we were anxious about being able to sit together. In the past if one of us has had to sit elsewhere, the counselors didn't really let us sit together. This year was completely different. They bent over backwards to let us sit together, depending on the weather we would wait in the cabin for our meals or eat on the lovely balcony. And, of course Keith would visit us at least once or even bring us our desserts. This turned out to be quite the lovely adaptation! Thanks, Katherine! There were several events that Katherine and I missed because of her hearing but I really didn't mind. I mean, if I wasn't with Katherine, it was not that fun. Half of the reason I go to camp is to see Katherine so being without her would feel so wrong!


I have to talk about Keith now. He and I both knew that the other counselors wouldn't necessarily understand our relationship. We Skype each other at least twice a week and talk about everything-not your typical camper counselor relationship. So, before I even got to camp, he explained to the counselors as best as he could how it would work. He knew I would want to swim with him and basically spend every minute I could with him. We really felt comfortable with each other. See, Keith skypes with me and through that I think he learned some of my cues such as, "breathe" and "relax" especially when I started to gag. We did get those weird looks like why are you guys so close? But that's par for the course!

I really do have to thank Kate! She was so AMAZING with our needs and especially making sure we were happy. Kate is definitely one of those special people who you want in your life. She was willing to learn and really put her best foot forward. She really made the week that much more fun for me.

Another amazing counselor was Lauren. She was happy all the time and made me laugh a lot. One of the coolest things she did was paint my toes bright pink. My feet actually cooperated and were pretty still which was miraculous! Probably the most rewarding moment with Lauren was when I was heading to my car to drive back home and she stops me and says, "You changed my prospective." Those are truly the moments I live for. That is what I think about when I'm having a difficult day.

Finally, Trinayani also known as T came for a day to visit me. She actually said she thought about not coming because she did not feel like it but then decided to come because of me. That was moving in itself. T and I met my first year at camp and connected right away and we have been friends ever since. I love this girl more than words can ever describe.

There are also two other people that I simply must mention which are Caycee and Danielle. Caycee is a counselor at Camp Courage and she really is such a cool young woman. She also has Cerebral Palsy and does not let her disability get in the way of anything. I don't think she realizes she has a disability half of the time. I love the girl to death!

The other young woman is Danielle. Oh my God. The girl is exactly like me. We think exactly the same! I started talking to her and it was like talking to my twin. She wouldn't take a magic pill to walk or talk and I feel the exact same way. All she needs to live is her service dog and her wheelchair. Wow! The girl simply blew me away.

As you can probably tell, I had such a great time at Camp Courage! I always say half of my heart is in Minnesota and half of my heart is here. To emphasize this point, I made a video. It's from 2007-09! It's been such an unexpected surprise and it just keeps getting better. Please watch my video:
My Journey at Camp Courage!

When I got home from camp, it was definitely difficult because I missed all my friends so much and my life was boring back home. One of the things that helps with this AND the independence factor is Facebook. Facebook is a social networking website that allows friends all over the world to connect with each other. Personally, it puts me on an equal playing field because the conversations are through instant messaging or messaging (it's e-mail on Facebook). I know all adults think it's this dangerous and horrible thing, I'm here to tell you, it's really not. If you are cautious, it is an amazing tool for socializing. I mention Facebook in here because I know a lot of parents with special needs kids read this blog. It's a great tool because they can talk to their friends without help from anyone. It's funny because once I tell people I have a Facebook, you can tell the person who I am talking to now understands that I'm a lot like them. Is it the magic pill for social acceptance? No. However, it's a step that your kid can take to be seen as a "normal" peer. Just throwing the idea out.

Also, one of the things that kept me independent and for that matter, busy is working at Pathways therapy center. I worked with two boys who used the DynaVox and helped with the newsletter. I felt absolutely blessed to have a job in this economy and the people are simply extraordinary there. I can't thank you enough!

Before I end this blog, I have to mention something quite sad. My great uncle's mother passed away this July. I wanted to recognize her life in this post. I did make a tribute to her however, DO NOT feel like you have to watch it if you did not know Mrs. King. If you do wish to watch the tribute, please go to:

Mrs. King

Anyway, it's off to Seattle tomorrow then I go back to school. I am so thrilled to be going back as a sophomore. I can't wait to really push myself. I would really say that this summer of relaxing has prepared me for being independent for the next exciting nine months. I am so excited about this year because I am ready for the challenges and successes that are ahead.

All I have to say is: Elmhurst College, I am back!

Lots of Love,
Hannah!

Who Knew!

Who knew! Who knew? Who knew! Who knew? This year has been incredible! I came here with goals and I accomplished them! A year ago we, no, you were so nervous about me going to college and now look, I did it! I can live independently. Hallelujah! However, as I think about going home, I am extremely frustrated and sad. It's as if someone said you can have independence and learn how to cope with the struggles of being independent BUT you have to go back and live like you did nine months ago.


Over the past few weeks, this has been a really big struggle for me. It's not that I don't love my parents or David and Genevieve but going back means living dependently. This is really hard for me to realize because I have been in charge of my life and now as I put it, I will be on Thompson time. This is reality. I love my family as you all know. However we all are aware that the transition will be difficult for ALL of us. We are prepared as a family to adapt and get through this. Another thing we are prepared for is figuring out what my new medical condition is.


Yea...that was a fun little surprise. Back in March, I started spontaneously gagging. I didn't really think anything of it because it happened few and far between. But then it started happening frequently. I had to write the e-mail that I never wanted to write. Something was wrong. You have to understand, when you have all these things going on in your body, you can't freak out immediately, you have to wait then you start telling people. Anyway, Mom has started to call doctors and we'll see what happens. This is where I have to say thank God I am coming home. I can be adequately supported at home and I have so much love there. As you could imagine, I wasn't planning on this or having to write about this in my blog but this blog is for the truth as joyous as it may be or as painful as it may be. I know I have to have faith that this will get better. Plus, I have you all to keep me strong and positive, that is so important to me. Before I end this blog, I have two much happier things to talk about. First, I have many people to thank.


People to thank:


My Assistants:

You all have made this year amazing for me. I want to thank each of you individually.


Kim: Kim comes from 8:45-2:00. She gets me dressed, feeds me breakfast, showers me, does my laundry, runs errands for me, scans my books, and other stuff that makes my day go smoothly. I have fallen in love with this woman and she is going to be going through a difficult summer and I hope she knows just how much I love her.


Jessica: She comes Monday, Tuesday and Thursday nights. She feeds me dinner, gives me unconditional support, walks on the treadmill with me and puts me to bed. She has been absolutely amazing in everything. She is my rock. I feel comfortable crying around her because she has never-ending empathy. We get into a lot of funny situations and every moment with her is wonderful.


Valerie: Valerie comes for Wednesday night dinners and Friday nights. She is my cutie pie. She is dependable and fun. I trusted Valerie to take me to a Phi Mu sleepover and she didn't make me regret that huge decision a bit. Valerie has become one of my good friends and I couldn't love the girl anymore.


Kelly: Kelly comes to put me to bed Wednesdays. She comes from Glenview and I respect her for choosing to make her day even longer by helping me. Also, when I do need something from home, Kelly always brings it to me with a smile on her face.


Megan: Megan comes Saturday nights. She feeds me dinner and puts me to bed. She seems to get the crises. I won't go into detail but we have had to endure the not so good drama together and she always risen to the occasion. I have unbelievable respect for her.


Stacy: Stacy comes on the weekend mornings. She alternates weekends with Shanah. Stacy is wonderful and dedicated to the job. I can always call Stacy if someone cancels. Stacy is just so great.


Shanah: Shanah alternates weekend mornings. We had instant chemistry. She is thoughtful and a fun person to be around. I can always count on her for a smile. I love this girl!

I am hoping that you can see how I live and accomplish my dreams by knowing when my assistants came and exactly what they do for me.

The Elmhurst Administration:

Desiree: Desiree is in charge of Student Success, she organized Big Questions and orientation and numerous other activities. She has embraced my family and me from the beginning. She is warm, sincere and kind. I have been going to talk to her once a week just to have some girl talk and it is so fun. She is really becoming someone I look up to and admire.

Eileen: Eileen is the Dean of Students. She is great at what she does. Eileen made a real effort in getting to know my needs and what I am all about. I am so thankful to have a Dean like her in my life.

Roger: Roger is in charge of Intercultural Affairs. He will lead thought provoking discussions and embraces every student for what he or she is. He has been a guy who I visit often and we have plans for the rest of the time I'm here. What are the plans? Like I'm really going to tell? Yeah right! Keep reading and you will know!!!

Ian: Ian works with the Greeks on campus. He was the one who called my mom and really made sure that I could really be in Phi Mu. Of course I could! Ian really does have the student’s best interest at heart.


Elizabeth: Elizabeth also works with the Greeks on campus. She helps all the sororities plan events and especially plan for the weekend of rush.

Bev: Bev is...nobody really knows what she actually does. In my mind, she is the mom of the school. She is always there for you and knows everybody!

Laura: Laura is the director of community service at Elmhurst. She and I haven’t really had a chance to get to know each other but the few times we have worked together, she has been really understanding towards me.

People Who Make My Day That Much Easier:

Gina: Gina is one of the writing tutors at the Learning Center. Her job is to help students develop their papers. She has done so much more for me. Gina immediately understood that I needed to use e-mail instead of bringing the actual paper in which is hard for me. She understood my unique situation right away. Gina has helped me with three major papers and I couldn't be more thankful to her.

Jacob and the wonderful Library Staff: Jacob works in the library and he caught on to me real fast. He dove right in! He recently helped me find sources for a ten page philosophy paper. He is friendly and really funny. In addition to Jacob, there is Peg. She is great at helping me also. She was right on board like Jacob. Also, Jennifer has been amazing and understood my situation immediately.

Samantha: Samantha came here for eight weeks to get Phi Mu started at Elmhurst. We completely hit it off and we are true sisters. I really can't put into words what we have.

There are so many other people that make my day easier that I couldn't possibly name you all but you know who you are and I am really blessed to have you in my life.

I think you can see why it's so hard to leave when I have all these wonderful people in my life. It is not easy to say good-bye. I have fallen in love with these people. Most of you can predict what I am going to bring up next!

CAMP COURAGE!!!

I am beyond thrilled at the idea of going to camp! I get to see so many people that I love dearly. I always think half of my heart is in Minnesota and the other half is here. You all know about Katherine but there are some other people that I just am itching to see...

Trinayani (kindly known as "T"): T met me three years ago on the first day of camp. She is so unbelievably strong and kind. She does not work at camp but she is visiting me during my session and I can't wait to see her huge smile and embrace her vibrant personality.

Caycee: Caycee is a former camper and I fell in love with her spunk and zest for life. If I remember correctly, she was a part of why I was painted from head to toe last year in the paint war along with many other counselors. Needless to say, I needed an hour long shower after that!

And of course...

Keith: Keith is just the greatest guy. He has been such a great friend. We had a connection right away. I cannot put into words how wonderful he is. For example, I was so upset about the gagging because I had gagged through Mother's Day brunch which was not an ego booster. I get on Skype and I call him and he talked to me for over an hour. Needless to say, I felt a hundred times better.

I need to mention that I did break up with Aaron the day after the blog went out. That was great timing! We still talk on a regular basis. We tried it; it was not right for me. He was a perfect gentleman about it and I cherish our friendship.

Going back to my original thought, WHO KNEW!!! I have exceeded my own expectations this year. This has been one of the greatest, exhilarating and most independent years of my life. I could not ask for more. Lastly, when I created this blog it was simply to tell you all what was going on, I never thought it would be such a huge thing that people look forward to reading. I can't tell you how much I love writing it.

As I said in my last post, at the end of the day, I'm healthy, happy and loved. Yes, the transition of going home is difficult, the gagging is a pain to deal with but overall in the big picture, I couldn't ask for a better life BECAUSE OF the people in my life.

I have succeeded this year. What am I going to do next year is the big question!

Your Sophomore,
Hannah!

At the End of the Day

The craziest, most thrilling adventure in life is finding love. I mean, countless movies are made about that adventure, how your parents met is probably the most romantic story to you, and we daydream about Mr. or Mrs. Right. Why? Because essentially it's what gives up hope at the end of the day. God, or whoever you may believe in put us on this earth with a natural instinct to find that special someone. Why am I talking about love? Because I found somebody.


His name is Aaron. He is from Camp Courage (anybody surprised?). We met three years ago at camp. He used a communication device and I wanted to check it out. Aaron was quite impressed with my skills on the DynaVox. However, we didn't have any sparks when we first met. I recall the director wanted him to be my mentor. Oh my God! How dare she suggest that I didn't know anything about using a device? I am the queen of DynaVoxes! Not waiting to express the 16 year old tantrum I was currently having in my head, I took his e-mail. I put his e-mail in my contacts and never e-mailed him. I didn't have any contact with him for a year. I go to camp the next year and Aaron bumps into me again and we talk for two minutes, we exchanged contact information. The difference was he had MY e-mail. Sometime, after camp he asks to be friends on Facebook. Eh, sure. He starts instant messaging me which was OK. I get to know Aaron and he becomes a really good friend. Last summer as you will learn, he asks me out. At that time, I only saw him as a friend and had to say no. Time passes and we are pretty much talking daily. So, what happened? He talked about Camp Courage in the way I feel about that wonderful place. I had been thinking about Aaron a lot and that sealed the deal for me. I decided to flirt with him, see what happens. Oh, he picked up on it REAL fast. So, we have a very intense, emotional, but sweet conversation. At this point in my post, Aaron will virtually introduce himself.


Hi my name is Aaron and I am 23 years old. I know she told some of you 22, but what is a relationship without a few miscommunications? I live in the Twin Cities area in Minnesota. I am a guest writer on this amazing blog for a good reason. I go to school at Minneapolis Community and Technical College in downtown Minneapolis studying Human Services. I like my classes. I first met Hannah at Camp Courage, her summer retreat, the first year she came. I was visiting the College Preview class to talk about my experience with classes and such. I met this very outgoing girl there (guess who?) and she inquired me about my communication device. When I told her about the cool features mine had, she got excited. After my talk, we chatted more, traded jokes, etc. I didn’t see her again until that next year, and this time it was around the Camp Courage campfire. We chatted briefly, and exchanged emails and that stuff. We chatted ever since via Facebook and Skype. Last Summer I asked her out, she respectfully said let’s just stay friends, I honored that request and just stayed in touch with her as a good friend. Then in the past few weeks, she had been sending me sweet messages via Facebook, and I asked if she wanted to still be friends, and she replied “I’ve been thinking about us” and I was floored. We have been happy ever since. Hopefully this is what she was looking for when she asked me to do this…


It was exactly what I was looking for, Aaron! I know there is an age difference and I'm not going to lie, I was nervous because society is so critical of romantic relationships and my parents would think and the list goes on and on. Then something occurred to me. At the end of the day, does it really matter? No. Aaron is sweet to me and likes me for all the reasons. Aaron and I talk to each other with a video phone and we understand if something happens and were late because we both face the challenges of Cerebral Palsy. After I had reconciled the age difference with myself, I applied the "At the end of the day" philosophy with my personal life and society.


It is a challenge for me to eat, drink, walk, talk and you all know that the list goes on and on. My assistants help me with these tasks and do a great job with it. However, one to two times a week an assistant will cancel. Whether its last minute or a week notice, I need to find a replacement immediately. It is not a question of "'can", it is simply a major of "how well can I do this task?". How well can I accommodate to their schedules? How well can I do this task? This adrenaline rush drenches my body in energy. My body stiffens with anxiety. Who is going to feed me? Put me to bed? I am now in my element. This is a test where failing is not an option. My hand reaches for the phone and I find someone. Success! I can call myself an independent woman for that day.


Currently, this is my job. I love it because the pay is not in dollars but personal satisfaction. That is why I wonder about people who work in the corporate world. They want to impress their boss or their co-workers not necessarily themselves. They worry so much about numbers, meaningless meetings, reaching the top salary and I don't know those seem worthiness to me. They don't really matter at the end of the day. Your spouse does not care, your children want to play regardless of whether you got that deal or not, and your dog probably wants a walk. If that does not prove my point, answer these questions. Does your spouse hug you and say I am so glad you got that deal? Does your pet love you more when you get promoted? Do your kids love you more if you got a deal that day? No.


I'm not saying the corporate world is necessarily bad but I think WE ALL lose touch with the glory of doing something for yourself. That is what I do and when I overcome the smallest challenge. I have to give myself credit or else I would not have made it through the first semester.


So, I have to ask what matters at the end of the day to you? I know for me it is that my family loves me, I have such great friends, wonderful assistants and that I get the privilege of calling myself an independent woman for one more day.

Kicking Some Butt,
Hannah!

P.S. I was having a really difficult night because of multiple reasons. When I'm having that type of moment, I usually resort to inspirational and happy YouTube clip however, I found myself reading your comments on my blog. They really do make a difference when those moments happen and for that I have to say thank you.

Dream Big

February 2nd, 2009-
I signed up with the recruitment officers today. The fear and anxiety has completely overwhelmed me. I remember wanting it so bad and it ended in heartbreak. I want this so badly but I can't give the world a concrete reason as to why. The girls seemed sweeter to both Jessica and I which is good. I am just so anxiety ridden and nervous already. Am I crazy for putting myself through this again? My little voice keeps reminding me that I have wanted this since summer and I will regret it if I don't go for it.


February 5th, 2009-


I regret watching The Bachelor that other night. I have so much empathy that I think seeing rejection on TV made me freak out. I went to the tea party today. It was OK. Jill, my good friend is rushing also and didn't hesitate to help me out at the party. The other girls weren't the typical sorority girls which was comforting. I know a lot of administrators want me to get in so that is good. I have my interview Monday and I think that will be my strong suit. All I can say is that I really want this.


February 11th, 2009-


I had my interview on Monday. I made them choke up so it went well. They sent me an e-mail asking about what it would be like to have me in their sorority. Questions about how my assistants would fit in, best way to contact me, etc. I can't help but take this as a good sign. Getting that e-mail made everything so incredibly real. It's scary when you realize this could really happen even if it is a wonderful thing. It's also scary because strong emotions are involved now (sorry, been watching the Bachelor, it's frequently what they say on the show). But seriously, I am now truly emotionally invested.


I attend the Everything Goes With Pink recruitment event tonight. It's another opportunity for the women to get to know me. As I was walking to dinner, one of the women who interviewed me greeted me with a hug and said that I would meet the national president of Phi Mu. I was quite flattered. This probably means they are talking about me and impressed by me. I am excited and curious and still a little nervous because it could still end in heartbreak. Jill, my friend is coming over to help me with last minute details so I feel confident and look great. I have a great friend in Jill.

February 13th- In a few minutes, I will find out. Yesterday's party went great. The chapter consultant said to me, we should have lunch next week and see you tomorrow. I'm pretty sure I will get recruited. When I was getting dressed this morning, I turned on the radio and I Hope You Can Dance and I thought of all of you because the montage I received on my 16th birthday was to that song. I started getting all choked up because I thought of all of you back home. I know you would want this for me if you were here. I will have a bite to eat then go to Desiree's office and find out. I DID IT...


I am a Phi Mu!!!!


I waited in line for fifteen minutes. Then Desiree opened my envelope and it said I had been invited to the new member ceremony.

I am truly proud of myself. I am thrilled. I did it. It was not a Special Education goal, it was not a therapy goal, it was MY goal. So many times people make goals for me. They are what I need but not exactly what's in my heart. This was my goal and I did it. It feels so rewarding because nobody suggested it or helped me like in the past. When I felt doubtful, I would always think, I'm going to be OK because I have you all and you make life terrific. I am so happy right now. This is a dream come true!

I hope I have inspired you to DREAM BIG! If you don't take risks then you are missing out on something great and if it does not turn out, I can be a shoulder to cry on. Go for your dreams! I will end this post with a song.

You can spend your whole life building
Something from nothin'
One storm can come and blow it all away
Build it anyway
You can chase a dream
That seems so out of reach
And you know it might not ever come your way
Dream it anyway
God is great
But sometimes life ain't good
And when I pray
It doesn't always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anyway I do it anyway
This world's gone crazy
It's hard to believe
That tomorrow will be better than today
Believe it anyway
You can love someone with all your heart
For all the right reasons
In a moment they can choose to walk away
Love 'em anyway
God is great
But sometimes life ain't good
And when I pray It doesn't always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anyway
Yea - I do it anyway
You can pour your soul out singin
A song you believe in
That tomorrow they'll forget you ever sang
Sing it anyway
Yea, sing it anyway
Yeah, yeah!
I sing
I dream
I love anyway
- Martina McBride


I may do a mini blog to explain everything because it's difficult to understand if you are not a Phi Mu and I don't know everything yet.

I am really happy!

Your Phi Mu,
Hannah!

A Wonderful End To 2008 Brings Hope to 2009

As I sit here in my dorm watching all the excitement in Washington, I get goose bumps. Everyone feels this INCREDIBLE wave of change coming. It is such a milestone for America. It is almost like America is graduating to a higher level of greatness. I personally respect and admire both Martin Luther King Jr. and Mr. President Elect Obama. I have a Martin Luther King Jr. poster in my room and I shiver as I look at that man today. His dream will come true tomorrow and I do not think any of us thought we would see this beautiful and monumental day. Tears have come to my eyes now as I write this. God Bless America and God Bless Mr. President Elect Barack Obama! Hallelujah!

As for me, the end of 2008 and the beautiful beginning of 2009 has been full of amazing events!

First and foremost, I want to thank my parents for a truly unforgettable Christmas gift. They flew in Katherine, my "sister" from Camp Courage. On Christmas Eve, with all of my other amazing gifts there was a big box. Really big box. I thought it was a TV which I did not really want. I like my little Toshiba, what? I saved the big box for last and David made me think it was heavy by the way he picked it up. Dad set it on my lap. I start opening it and it is a huge cardboard box. Mom opened the box for me and all it had was tissue in it and then a card from my parents that said, what would thrill Hannah this year? Low and behold...KATHERINE WAS COMING in four days. I went into the shaky, I cannot believe this happening cry! This was a dream come true. This was unbelievable. Katherine, who is practically my sister was going to be in my arms in four short days! Incredible!

And when she was in my arms, it was pure bliss! We hugged the entire car ride home! I just thought, You're here, you're here, you are here! We went to the Shedd Aquarium, saw the Brookfield lights and we TALKED! Wait, back up....I have to explain Katherine's disability first. Katherine can walk but she cannot talk-in the conventional way. BUT, she can express a whole sentence in one facial expression, she can make one noise and convey a thousand words to me. I call it Katherine lingo. She does have a device like mine to speak but it was broken. Plus, she uses mine. Katherine can use my DynaVox with such ease! Katherine is the only person on this planet that I allow to use my precious DynaVox. We had tons of private conversations in the car and on my bed when my parents made me get out of my wheelchair. I think my favorite memory was when we were home alone and she was feeding me and it just felt so right and easy. We were talking about how people don't understand how easy it is to figure us out. And, we were talking about how in our relationship she does the physical things and I, for once do the talking when we went shopping or anywhere in public. Communication can be so many things, a squeal, a scream, a look, anything! I think we often forget that communication is not necessarily e-mail, texting or talking for that matter. In the end, it is about truly connecting and understanding another human being. I am so very blessed to have Katherine in my life.

Some random short stories:

- Dad and I were getting my room settled after break. I'm telling him where everything goes and whatnot. In the middle of unpacking, I realize I forgot my clock. You see, time is everything when you're dependent on someone. I know exactly when my aide has to be there. It is security. But I didn't have that security. In fact, that security was left at home. My face goes completely pale and my dad knows as if it had happened before that were heading to Walgreens to buy an alarm clock at 10:00 at night. So, we jump into the car and half hour later I have an alarm clock. Thank the Lord!

- Oh, some of you probably want to hear about the academic stuff! In January, Elmhurst offers you the opportunity to take one class in January-like summer school but it's snowing. Spring semester starts in February. Right now, I'm taking a class called The Problem of Evil. It centers around the question, if God is all good then why is there evil? It is a pretty interesting class and I like it for the most part.

- Last but certainly not least is my visit back to Glenbrook South. It was amazing going back and seeing all the people who said, you can go to college and I got the privilege of saying, Yes I Did!

We will all wake up to a new and better America tomorrow and with that thought I say, hope for anything because it is truly a new day tomorrow.

All my Love,
Hannah!